A Few Words On My Absence

I haven’t written here in a while. But judging by breadth of content populating the Medium homepage, I haven’t been missed.

Which sucks, in a way, but is what it is.

Anyway, what can I say, I’ve been lost the past few months, working on one particularly engrossing project — really, some of the most emotionally-draining work of my life and career — and getting set to begin another, which has taken me away from writing here. I mean, I suppose I’ve wanted to write things here, but just haven’t felt compelled to.

It’s kind of depressing, actually, knowing that no matter how much work you put in, how great of a writer you are, you can step away from writing, and almost immediately — at least on this platform — there are like five billion writers willing to take your place. At a certain point, you just throw up your hands, because it’s all kind of meaningless, really.

Which is, again, why I have stepped away. I’ve grown more conscious, I think, of the stories I want to tell, the things I want to say, and don’t have the patience or the time for the meaninglessness of whatever this is. And I’m not saying all that is written here is meaningless, because it’s not, only that when there’s so much of it, it does begin to feel that way.

Moving forward though, my hope is that this space, no matter how meaningless it is, continues to exist. And I hope that when I return — shit, it could be tomorrow — people are still here to read the stuff. That with the glut of things vying for your attention, my stuff still cuts through, that people see it, read it, and like it (or really don’t like it).

If that doesn’t happen, then what the hell are you going to do. But for now, I feel like I’ve written enough words here to last for a while; really, they’d make a nice book. So, dig into that stuff, and hopefully I’ll see you again here soon.

Best,

Paul

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